For those of you who’ve followed me for a while, you’ll know I LOVE Muay Thai (Thai Boxing).
Last year I had my first fight in November and I was pummelled.
The fight was recorded and I watched it… 4 weeks ago…
So, yeah, safe to say I’d avoided that shit like the plague!
In my head, I remembered a DISASTER.
I felt like I’d just given up.
Like, I’d got hit with a good kick to the face and then it felt like GAME OVER.
My coaches and team mates at the gym all told me I should watch the recording.
“Yeah, I’ll watch it one day.”
The longer I left it, the bigger that shit got in my head.
I had the feeling of disorientation and “WTF” still swimming around in my body and I couldn’t shake it.
It felt so… REAL.
When I eventually ‘plucked up the courage’ to watch it…
I saw myself come out of my corner STRONG.
I threw the first kick.
I kept stomping her down.
I grabbed her into a strong clinch.
I DEFINITELY landed some AWESOME low point kicks and a right hook that sent her head flying.
Then I got superman punched in the head (so, basically, she jumped in the air and her full weight landed on my head. Ouchie.)
After that, I could see in my eyes that I was gone.
THIS was the MOMENT I’d remembered… I couldn’t see, hear or think.
Watching the replay, I could see that written all over my face.
So could she.
After that, it didn’t take long for the fight to be called. I had gone 2 rounds (3 minutes).
Why am I telling you this?
Well, 2 reasons.
1. I was totally fucking disorientated. No idea where I was, what I was doing or what the fuck had happened… BUT… I kept going.
2. I had put off watching that fight for SO LONG that I’d built it up as this epic failure. I was ashamed and embarrassed and it was impacting my performance in the gym for 9 months after the event… 9 months of training practically wasted because I was carrying that absolute bullshit around with me. When I looked it in the eye, I had done a pretty fucking good job for my first fight against an opponent who was more experienced.
When you are faced with opposition from your own limiting bullshit, don’t run from it! Look it in the eye and name it because then it loses it’s power and you might just be surprised at how awesome you truly are.
Stop using your past (perceived) failures to prove to yourself why you are fine where you are and you needn’t try anymore because, well, you failed so you obviously aren’t meant for that thing you wanted. It was obviously just a pipe dream.
I am so happy to tell you that I am back to training and I will fight again.
It has taken me so long to get back to enjoying training like I used to.
It’s an escape.
A place where I can legally hit people in the face.
And I am not going to let 3 minutes derail me any longer.
I am not going to let 3 minutes strip away my connection to the thing that makes me feel most alive.
If you have a past ‘failure’ hanging over your head and you know that you need to look that beast in the eye and make it your bitch…
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